These emotions are something I’m familiar with all too well. Fear of the unknown, doubting whether something I want will happen, worry that if it doesn’t happen what will I do. I would love to just let these things go and adopt some sort of “devil-may-care,” blasé attitude. Why can’t I be like those that just go for their dreams and if something doesn’t work out they just let it go? Is it difficult for them? They make it appear so easy that I cannot possibly fathom that it is a challenge for them at all.
I’m afraid of people leaving me in my life even if they love me. I’m afraid of letting those go that I know do in order to achieve what I want. I’m afraid of so many things all at once it becomes overwhelming. I’m drowning in a sea of self pity right here it seems. Doesn’t anyone else feel this way? If so how do they get through it? How do they move on? How do they make sense of all these things and then adopt an attitude of whatever comes my way I will accept it?